I'm sorry if this offends someone, because it's not what I'm trying to do. (The title is there just to draw attention lol.)

Since I became honest to myself as an artist, my inbox has become filled with complaints about my current style. And by "being honest" I mean giving up drawing "anime" dogs just because everyone else likes them - just for my need to please everyone and maybe even fame, unfortunately. (Sorry for my choise of words, I didn't find the right refinition to describe my old style ;; This one is certainly misleading because even my current style is quite animu lol) Even though receiving compliments from people can be nice, admittedly (so I'm not telling you that your comments wouldn't mean anything to me!)... Is it really worth lying to yourself? I think it's not.

I want drawing to become my job someday and for that I have to stop pretending something that I'm not. I'm not saying that you couldn't become an animator, for example, by drawing anime dogs but you can do that ONLY if drawing them feels natural to you. It's kinda hard to describe that but by "natural" I mean what you get when you put the pen on the paper and just draw. You don't need to erase anything thinking "oh no, this is not my style" - that's exactly what I was doing before I even understood the meaning of art. It's something you don't force yourself to do - well, somehow you just need some kick in the but to get working but when you find yourself with a style you're not familiar with... stop right there and be honest with yourself because by what you're doing now won't end well. At least I felt like I wasn't going anywhere. Like, I wasn't able to improve my skills and that was quite damn frustrating.

But no, the comments I told you about earlier are not usually just whining and unneccessary rage - actually, most of them are quite mature. But I just want to say that complaining about my style every single day won't make me change it, even if I kinda feel like it nowadays when I look at my inbox. I'm not trying to make you sound like guilty, because I kinda feel like it's me who should feel like one in this case. :'D So if somebody starts blaming even one who's complaining about my current art, the blamer her/himself is the stupid one. I hope you get it.

But I'm not telling you that your comments are pointless - because that's not true! After all, I think every opinion is important and you have your right to say them aloud. I've just get so many comments about this subject and because it takes so much time to explain everything in this journal to everyone, I think this is the best option in this case.
And, don't get me wrong, please. Constructive criticism is always more than welcome! I just want to make it clear that you won't get "my" old style back. I'm sorry.

And, if you don't like where my art is going at all, there's always chance to unwatch me. ^^


It's just... this is me and the pictures I create are part of me. And if I have learning something about life, it's that you can't change who you are, no matter how hard you try.